a visitor

She called, she wanted to show me her new hair do. So she came over about 30mins later in her new truck as well. I invited her in and it was like an angel had entered my house. She is so beautiful. I wanted nothing more then to take her in my arms and never let go. I said that I would get over her though, and I want to, I have to. She stayed a whole five minutes. Five minutes of torture. I wish she wouldn't have come over, it just wasn't a good time. She walked out my door perhaps never to be seen again. I asked for no hug, no physical contact what so ever. She did pat me on the head once while we were talking. *confused* I shut the door to my house then turned 90 degrees and proceeded to bang my head against the wall a dozen times. I felt nothing. I don't know why I did it. Love will do crazy shit to you.